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FUCKING WHY…
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07
04
2008
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is it so difficult to figure out what the hell guys want.
You ask, they get weirded out.
You don’t ask, you’re left in the dark.
It’s a no win fucking situation.
FUCK.
I’ve never seen a species of human so averse to proclaiming their wants.
And then there’s the endless “I don’t know …” bullshit.
BULLSHIT.
If you don’t know, who the fuck does?
Idiots.
All of them.
Don’t fucking start shit if you don’t know wtf you’re doing!
CONSISTENCY BITCH!
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Join Thee To A Nunnery
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06
26
2008
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More than being hurt, I think I’m just retardedly insulted by how much I didn’t mean to him.
My love, innocence, dedication, respect — everything I had, I pretty much gave.
I even gave him the most important thing I had to give, and I still couldn’t match up to his friends.
So, yeah. I lied.
This whole thing really fucking hurts.
But that being said,
if everything I had wasn’t good enough, what is?
Serious food for thought.
But, since he kinda threw me away, I guess I’m just going to have to accept that in our relationship, apparently not me.
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Fun with hair and boys
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06
22
2008
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…well more like one boy in particular.
I’ve been seeing someone new. I used to work with him at my first firm and he quit the week after I got there, but we’ve kept in touch. He’s an awesome designer, so I’ve learned a lot from him. We’re just having fun right now; I wouldn’t exactly call him my boyfriend just yet. He currently lives in Chino Hills, which is about an 45 minutes away from me but he’s going to be moving to Newport Beach next week so he’ll be closer. The drive to Chino Hills isn’t that bad though - it’s much easier than my drive to and from San Diego when I was with Joe, and a hell of a lot closer than Okinawa. Newport Beach is around the corner from me.
Anyway, I got a haircut and I also went red again. I sort of wish it was redder, but my stylist said I should go a little more conservative since I have to be a professional and the cut is already sort of dramatic. Conveniently, the salon is located next door to us in the same little plaza that my work is in. I also got some clip-in extensions in case I ever go anywhere nice and want to have long hair. Here are some pics:
view more photos of my hair in my album!
I look so different with long hair. I mean, my hair was long before, but I got 22″ extensions and they’re like movie-star perfect. I like my hair short though, its so much easier to maintain. Most days I can just wake up, scrunch, and go.
Work has been great; I’m building out the Cornzapoppin site, and it’s looking good so far. I’m excited to be wrapping that project up finally.
I’ll be hanging out with Agiri and Toya today, so hopefully Agiri or I will have some pictures to share later.

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Overtime… Not Really
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06
04
2008
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waiting for my friend to pick me up but he’s late, of course.

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A Fitting 2AM Update
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06
02
2008
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I got a haircut.
And took pictures at 2AM.
So I thought, “What better place to camwhore than 2AMfix!?!? Right!?!?! RIGHT!!!”
So basically, click (for huge ass pictures ;X)
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Still Alive, No Worries
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05
29
2008
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After a great deal of restless discomfort, and an inability to ignore the blaring apprehension permeating my body, I decided to blog for the genuine need to process and unload my current predicament, as well as indulge in some common courtesy for those who wish to verify my continued well-being.
So first things first –present, alive, and well.
Well … as well as one can be at 1:34 AM — burning eyes, heavy heart, slightly shot brain and all. The last of which quite perfectly accounts for my current lack of literary finesse. However, at this point, I’m beginning to think my literary eloquence (or lack thereof) is somewhat irrelevant in light of my cesspool of thoroughly more cumbersome issues.
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I have a life
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05
19
2008
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Yeah, that’s right. I’ve been getting my life back together finally; I have a new job, new friends, new hobbies… Brandon and I have been doing wonderfully, I’ve been drama-free for weeks now and I’ve just been drinking it all in.
I have been working at Golden State Communications for a couple weeks now, as a Designer and Project Manager and my impression of this Orange County web firm has been pretty great so far. The atmosphere is wicked laid back and the people are really nice, and they all have great senses of humor. We have some interesting clients, and I keep pretty busy during the week. We have this ping-pong table in the office and most of us spend a lot of time playing against each other. I personally suck at this game - but I get better as the days go by. One day I’ll finally destroy everyone at ping-pong!

Disney sets up impressionable young children for a world of failure.
— Trish