2amfix.net

So much has happened between my lovely birthday post and now …

So much that I don’t even know where to start …

And nor do I have the patience to figure it out.

All I know is that I fucked up badly, suffered a ridiculous amount of guilt, almost cried tears of relief after determining he wasn’t…

My mother seriously has the brain capacity of a fly. I’m not sure how God created such a stupidly stubborn creature with the inability to understand basic concepts built upon common sense! Every conversation regarding my brother’s lack of intelligence, poor academic performance, or any downfall at all results in a heated discussion in which…

I hate people that bum cigarettes, smoke them incorrectly, and then throw them away without even having the decency to puff the bitch through.

You douchebags.

There are so many thoughts, emotions, and feelings whirling through my mind that I don’t even know where to begin. All I know is that the only way to obtain even a semblance of emotional release is by organizing it all and physically removing them from my system. So, here we go.

Fact: I’m truly okay…

I’m just so annoyed, disgusted, and stressed right now that I don’t even know how to start this blog.

Basically, my parents borrowed $600 from me since their finances were short, WHICH is already a bit ridiculous considering that I’m a poor college student that pays for all my expenses. I lent them this money thinking…

Instead of racking my brain in an effort to find the fitting words to perfectly capture my thoughts of quite a few people at the moment, I decided to let some lyrics do the talking.

In fact, I find this song so smashing that its earned the honor of being my parental ringtone.

So without further ado,…

Edit: Gahd, I feel like a fruit — but after revisiting old songs all night courtesy my current insomnia, I stumbled across these lyrics and thought … “… SRSLY … TT___TT!!! …”

“또 한번만 매일 ë°¤ ë³´ê³  싶다 말해줘
단 한번만
단 한번만 이렇게 안아줘
사랑해 말해줘 너 한번만 웃어줘
또 한번만 또 다시 날 보고싶다 말해줘
또 나를 ë³´ê³  웃어줘”
(D.Caprio…

that this relationship is getting just plain unhealthy.

It’s 3 parts yearning, and 1 part happiness.

I need to extricate part of myself out of this whirlpool while figuring out a way to maintain and nourish this relationship.

Fuck you DS for making me wait for you all the time.

is it so difficult to figure out what the hell guys want.

You ask, they get weirded out.
You don’t ask, you’re left in the dark.

It’s a no win fucking situation.

FUCK.

I’ve never seen a species of human so averse to proclaiming their wants.

And then there’s the endless “I don’t know …” bullshit.

BULLSHIT.

If you don’t know, who the…

…well more like one boy in particular.

I’ve been seeing someone new. I used to work with him at my first firm and he quit the week after I got there, but we’ve kept in touch. He’s an awesome designer, so I’ve learned a lot from him. We’re just having fun right now; I wouldn’t exactly…