You douchebags.

I had a real shitty day. My preliminary three month probation is over at my job, meaning I had my evaluation today. I was supposed to get a raise. I deserve a raise. I need a raise. Why didn’t get it, again? Because other people can’t do their jobs fast enough and my projects are taking too long to launch. Whether it’s stuck in development, data import, or if it’s just been managed poorly by the higher-ups, 90% of my projects are stalling. Meaning I haven’t earned my boss much profit because he hasn’t been able to bill anyone yet. Meaning I haven’t “earned” my raise – monetarily, that is. In terms of hard work, dedication to the job, and overall competence… I really think – no, I know I’ve exceeded everyones expectations.

Sigh. Bright side? I’ve been hired permanently and I get health insurance, finally. I also get put on salary and there are some other cool benefits too. I guess after getting such good feedback from my manager and peers, I started to just assume I would get that raise. When I didn’t get it, it was just a huge shock and disappointment to me.

In other news, Rick and I have been doing better the past two weeks. We had some rough patches the week before I went to Houston and the week after, but things are starting to mellow out and we’ve been spending a lot more time together.

Seriously. I understand that people will always have questions about everything, but yknow… I don’t understand why they need to waste everyones time with questions that they could answer themselves if they just listened to what people were saying from the beginning. Especially if the information they’re looking for is in any kind of reading material that’s already been provided to them. Just fucking read it. How hard is that?

I hate it when they get the wrong idea about things because they can’t deduce simple concepts and then when you have been repeatedly trying to correct them they start getting bitchy and curt with you. Just shut the fuck up. Maybe if you had been here, you wouldn’t look so dumb.

I REALLY hate it when the same people tell you not to be so concerned with what they say and ask even though what they’re saying and asking is a stupid waste of time. Yeah I’m concerned. I’m concerned you’re on something.

I really really really hate it when people have been hired to take point on a certain task and they start coming to me with questions that they’re supposed to be a specialist in. Seriously. I asked my superior to find someone who is an expert in this area since it’s not my field and not my job to be responsible for it, and instead of being competant enough to fulfill our requests, I end up doing all the work for them. You advertised to us that you were a specialist in this area. If you can’t figure this shit out, then what the fuck are we paying you for?

End rant.

I’m going to post a video tomorrow about what my boyfriend put me through on Thursday night. It was seriously horrific.

In other news, I’ve made my deadline for this news site. Well, I will meet my deadline. I’m not done yet, but I will be tomorrow morning. I’ve been working pretty much 24/7.. I’ve barely gotten any sleep. But at least I’m getting paid for all my work soon.