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I’m not feeling good. I woke up the other morning with pain in my upper back… my shoulders are tense, and I know it’s all stress. I can’t relax. I’m constantly kept on my toes. I keep waiting for the shit to hit the fan. I’m not happy… I’m more fulfilled than I was a…

So Rick and I are over, as of this Wednesday. I know, we’ve broken up and gotten back together a lot of times in the past six months, but this seems final. I was doing horribly the past two days; could not stop whining about it and feeling bad. My friends had to listen to…

There are so many thoughts, emotions, and feelings whirling through my mind that I don’t even know where to begin. All I know is that the only way to obtain even a semblance of emotional release is by organizing it all and physically removing them from my system. So, here we go.

Fact: I’m truly okay…

I really can’t depend on anyone but myself. And I always knew that… but somewhere down the line, I guess I just forgot. I had some stuff going on at home today, and the one person I thought was going to be here for me just wasn’t. So I find myself sitting here feeling really…

So I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain with David yesterday (and yes, it was fucking hot as shit –
I almost fucking melted out of my skin) and started to realize something really shocking.

He’s mine.

And although our conversations were awkwardly executed, it still made me happy. Watching him slowly become more comfortable and less censored…

Shit.

I had a real shitty day. My preliminary three month probation is over at my job, meaning I had my evaluation today. I was supposed to get a raise. I deserve a raise. I need a raise. Why didn’t get it, again? Because other people can’t do their jobs fast enough and my projects are…

After a great deal of restless discomfort, and an inability to ignore the blaring apprehension permeating my body, I decided to blog for the genuine need to process and unload my current predicament, as well as indulge in some common courtesy for those who wish to verify my continued well-being.

So first things first –present, alive,…